Someday...........

Someday I will not cry, but smile when I see a picture of my Mom.

Someday I will remember her when she was well and not sick.

Someday I will not cry after talking to my Dad on the phone.

Someday I will not think of all the what ifs.

Someday I will fall asleep with happy thoughts instead of sad ones.

Someday I will make it through the day without crying.

Someday I will be able to listen to her voice on my answering machine.

Someday I will give her pink pretty flowers.

Someday I will finish her scrapbook.

Someday I will see her again!

He only gives you what you can handle......

Have you heard that statement before? That he never gives you more then you can handle. I have heard it a few times in my life and to tell you the truth I'm done with it!! I think I have handled enough over the years and I don't want to do it any more! I mean come on already! What have I done to deserve all of this! It seems like it's a never ending cycle with me and my family. Okay....maybe I'm feeling a little sorry for myself right now. But if you put it all out there then you might say that I have had my fair share of all of this. I guess I have been thinking about this for awhile and I'm just kind of upset about everything, so I'm sorry if I'm sounding mad. I been having some hard days these last few weeks and I just can't seem to get over this hump! I can't really count how many times that I broke down and cried yesterday. I cried when I took down the curtains that my Mom had put up, I just needed to wash them, but for some reason just taking them down was hard for me. I then went and looked through my pictures again.....big mistake! Not only did it make me upset, it made me mad at myself all over again for not having more pictures of her! I don't have many with her and Emmie and it just breaks my heart that some day she will ask why! Emmie got hurt yesterday and all I thought about was that I wanted to call my Mom! Why does that keep happening to me! She was always the first person I would call when something would happen to one of the kids. Now I don't have that person. In the end Emmie was fine, but she would have wanted to know about it and would have told me that everything was going to be fine.

Please don't give me any more.......I just can't handle it!

Baseball Season~

We are now into the middle of the baseball season and the kids are doing pretty good. Ty's team is having a okay year. Most of the kids on his team are new this year...so it's been a hard adjustment for not only him but for me also to get used to losing!!! But as long as he's playing well, that's all that matters, right??? Hmmmm, not really sure how I feel about that statement! But I guess we are both learning this year...you can't always win!






Emmie's team is doing really well. They haven't lost a game! They did have one game that was a tie and they just left it at that. She is really enjoying it and really likes the end of the game when she gets snacks!! I think that's her favorite time of the game.







My cousin Missy came out to visit and she took some really great photos of the kids, so I thought I would put a few up for you all to see. Hope you enjoy them.
Thanks Missy for coming out to visit us and taking all the wonderful pictures! She had taken over 100 pictures while she was here! We all really enjoy visitors! Everyone is always welcome to come out to visit the good old state of Kentucky!

Mother's Day~

First of all I would like to tell you that I'm sorry for not posting last Wednesday. I was busy getting ready for company and didn't even have time to sit down and eat that day. I will try not to do that again!

Mothers Day

I hope you all had a wonderful Mothers Day. I know you are all very special Moms and you all deserve nothing but the best!

My Mother's Day was a little different this year.........

What I wouldn't do for a past Mothers Day. All I really wanted this year was to be or talk with my Mom, but that wasn't going to happen. It started off a few weeks ago that I didn't have to think about what to send her, or to ask my sisters what they were going to be doing for my Mom or how I was going to make her card. But I did think about it...It was the only thing on my mind. I wanted to stress over what to get her, even though most of the time I would end up just sending her a gift card or money so she could go shopping. She loved to go shopping. She so looked forward to this time of the year. Her and my Grandma would go to garage sales and end up finding the best things. So, that's what I would end up sending her. I always wanted to get her a really special gift...but in the end I know that she would much rather go out and have a day with my Grandma, that was her fun!

Then the DAY came!!! I really tried to act like I was okay, I did it for the kids. Emmie had a make up game and that kind of kept my mind busy for a little bit, but in the end, it just didn't matter where I was. I just wanted to talk to her. I usually wouldn't talk to her very long on Mothers Day because they were busy doing things, but it was the Monday after that we would talk and I would find out how her day went. I so loved those days. It made me feel like I was there, which is really where I wanted to be.

The saddest part of the day was that I couldn't give her flowers. I would have loved to at least do that for her, she deserves that! I would have picked something pink and pretty. She needed to have flowers everywhere on that day, but I wasn't there to give her any. It just breaks my heart that I can't go up and visit with her and give her all the flowers that she deserves!

Mothers Day will never be the same again!