Its funny how certain dates are never forgotten. Like today's date...December 12th. A lot of people have this date marked, maybe not on their calenders but in their minds. I knew it was coming, I could feel it. I'm still having trouble understanding why this day had to happen. But we can't take it back...she's gone. I live with that fact every day. And every day I miss her more then anyone can imagine. Yes, now I can make it through the day without crying...but the sadness is still here. Still looming over me...waiting for the moment when it just hits all of the sudden.
I see myself sitting with her that day. Having the same feelings all over again. Looking at all the people around her. Its not just on this day that this memory goes through my mind...but on today its just more vivid. My heart still aches to see her, to hear her say my name, to see her walk towards my children and give them a hug.
I'm a 42 year old woman and I need my Mom.
Two years~
